I am not sure how much longer I can stay in L&D it is so alien to me- so controlling so unemotional so about the Doctors - never about women or babies never about birth. I do what I can but its difficult just so difficult-

I have started my application for midwifery ever have to do that again who would taught I would have to go back to school to train to be a midwife all over again.

Fingers crossed soon I will be back on the road to midwifery.