Truthfully returning to midwifery school to retrain as a midwife has had its struggles it so difficult having other people other midwives mark your work - some to be fair hold the up most respect for me as a sister midwife All be it trained and practised in another countries others hold some form of arrogance and are patronizing that I am now getting the correct training . I am retaking the whole course for the love of my profession. I do not believe that I know everything or I have not got anything to learn as that could not be further from the truth- but all I ask is that people listen to me and accept that there may be a different way of looking at things!
I gone over and over in my mind why midwifery why am I putting myself and my family through this- Why am I not happy with being a nurse - you know I cannot answer that - I know I believe in birth life and families I love being around people at these times. I not really religious for me religion is life when a baby comes into this world that is the meaning of it all the impact that life has on others.
Although I am in love with a man I truly love women I really do and I think seeing them in birth the strength the determination the fear the wounder all at once it what draws me to it. I hate the way pregnancy and birth have been down graded in our society - where pregnant women are made to feel week if they should admit they are tired when pregnant. When it appears no longer special to be pregnant. Birth and its wonderment has now been put on a time clock induced at 38 weeks, numbed with epidurals and hurried with
potcin. It seems no longer to about the
miracle of life. This is why I need be a midwife to help people remember what life is about if people no longer respect
pregnancy and birth how can they
respect life.
I need to keep my eye on the prize and push my way through.