My Boys

I am so blessed to have three wonderful children- all boys but so different they are the most loving children we are all so close- we have the best summer planned ever I am taking a summer nurse job at a residential camp all the boys and hubby we will be away at camp for five weeks we are so lucky and so excited what an opportunity as a family. Lucky us.

Application Sent

So I have sent my application to be considered for midwifery education - again - if I am successful it will be strange to be a student midwife again almost 10 years on from the first time- what a strange path my life has taken. I really believe that I will be a midwife again soon helping women achieve an empowering birth experience -the births I am helping with at the moment are so unemotional even cold it is the weirdest experience of my life - its almost like the woman is a spectator- I witnessed a 19 year old cut last night so the doctor did not have to wait the whole experience made me sick a complete violation of birth and the women and their families except this just get the baby the quickest way no matter what the cost to the mother. I think I am having this experience for a reason to make me a better midwife to open my eyes wide-to make me examine my own ego.

I am not sure how much longer I can stay in L&D it is so alien to me- so controlling so unemotional so about the Doctors - never about women or babies never about birth. I do what I can but its difficult just so difficult-

I have started my application for midwifery ever have to do that again who would taught I would have to go back to school to train to be a midwife all over again.

Fingers crossed soon I will be back on the road to midwifery.

The Start

Well here we go a new blogger at the age of forty- and to think they did not even offer computer lessons when I was in school all those years ago. My sons will be proud of their old mother. So at the grand old age of 39- we meaning husband, three boys and I up sticks and move 5000 miles away......... and for the most part it is going well very -the only thorn in my side is that I can not work as a midwife......... So after working for 10yrs as a midwife I am now suck in OB as a L&D nurse ! I have died and gone to HELL. I am working on getting accepted to a school - so that I can study midwifery all over again and get certified in USA -but to me is madness-I could fly in to London tomorrow - 10 hour flight and pick up a midwifery job the next day- here only 10yrs away in a country that we are brothers in arms with I am having difficulty even getting on a Midwifery course.............Oh well moan over on wards and upwards - were there is a will and all that.

See you soon